isabelley

Try as he might he's unable to speak
He grabs her by the hair, he strokes her on the cheek
The bed is unmade like everything is
Dark little heaven at the top of the stairs
Take me like that, ruin it all
Then build it again by the light in the hall
He drops to his knees says please my love, please
I'll kill who you hate, take off that dress, you won't freeze

One more night, that was a good one
One more night, i dreamed it was a good one
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one
A good one

He starts with her back cause that's what he sees
When she's breaking his heart she still fucks like a tease
Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye
And tell him that now, that you wish he would die
You'll never touch him again so get what you can
Leaving him empty just because he's a man
So good when it ends, they'll never be friends
One more night, that's all they can spend

One more night, that was a good one
One more night, i dreamed it was a good one
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one
A good one

For being such a terrible person? For lieing about anything and everything? For manipulating people for your own selfish reasonings? Just because YOU hate the world, doesn't mean shit. I'm so sick of people like you.

with what ever it means I have to give up in order to get back to that.

I've never appreciated anyone the way I do right now. I'm seeing life through a whole 'nother lenses

From my birthday/today







( and more! )

I got chatted with my best friends for 7 minutes and 24 seconds. I miss them more and more everyday. Cannot wait to be reunited at last.
And why am so upset over THAT

I apologize for my moody- pre menstration ovulating week. Though that doesn't make me as bad as I'm going to be the next week. It's probably safe the people that mean most to me will be gone for that.

I just envisioned in a recap about what all this I'm doing, what it means to me. I mean I always have been, but for some reason, I just got a lot of positive answers to all these questions. It is not all bad. I know what is important, and what's not important. And I learned it's okay to play around in order to grow up, but slow down. The more curious, the wiser we'll be later on. For the first time, I feel a foundation built beneath me. All of this, wasn't just for them, but an extenuation for me too. Though I have worked it down, there is not a single reason why these routes cannot be repaired. It's only the process there now. It will all be an adventure. Most importantly, know that you are not the world. I am so insignificant to all these creatures of not just the galaxy, but the entirety of the universe. Why must my worry be so big as to blow the rest of these beings bodies away. I want to be pleasured. I want to be bold. I want happiness. And here I am. I am achieving it piece by piece more and more. Though there are those 'you don't want to do things,' I always feel so much more accomplished working hard to fufill these duties. It's not just for everyone else, but to let myself know my place. I want to be a helper. I want to mother. I want to coinernce all these dreams of mine to this reality of mine. One day, it will all be grave. Forever.

My friends came over. We mingled and whatnot for a little; smoked a few cigarettes, a little bit of weed, and a conversation full of happiness. :) Then there was a "delivered pizza." I saw UP and it changed my life.

good in my life right now. I am content for the first time in weeks.

I went to sleep at one last night. I wake up, Leigh is on top of me, I'm screaming at her because she smells like whiskey and cigarettes, and on top of that vomit layered her clothing. Some random dude walks through the apartment, I wake up and hear him say, "never too late for a drink." I am attacked for several more minutes until Leigh tells me "we brought the hottest French guys home." I look over, see him and am scared. I don't know how much she really drank.

made me feel better than okay today. You made me feel worth it.

why "Isabelle time" didn't come around enough?
less dependency, more me time

I love Sam Hennnnry. Thank you for dinner.

You know it's funny to look at something from the outside, but on top of everything I'm glad to be where I'm at, even if it hurts as bad as it does. I dragged myself into my own mess and in time, I'll be able to pull myself out. I am strong and I am weak. I am happy yet sad. And sometimes I'm overconfident and sometimes I'm insecure.

I don't want a certain romance or none of that bullshit just some fine ass hunky man and a one night stand, lots of action and little to no talk.