Loyal · in · your · shadow

I just envisioned in a recap about what all this I'm doing, what it means to me. I mean I always have been, but for some reason, I just got a lot of positive answers to all these questions. It is not all bad. I know what is important, and what's not important. And I learned it's okay to play around in order to grow up, but slow down. The more curious, the wiser we'll be later on. For the first time, I feel a foundation built beneath me. All of this, wasn't just for them, but an extenuation for me too. Though I have worked it down, there is not a single reason why these routes cannot be repaired. It's only the process there now. It will all be an adventure. Most importantly, know that you are not the world. I am so insignificant to all these creatures of not just the galaxy, but the entirety of the universe. Why must my worry be so big as to blow the rest of these beings bodies away. I want to be pleasured. I want to be bold. I want happiness. And here I am. I am achieving it piece by piece more and more. Though there are those 'you don't want to do things,' I always feel so much more accomplished working hard to fufill these duties. It's not just for everyone else, but to let myself know my place. I want to be a helper. I want to mother. I want to coinernce all these dreams of mine to this reality of mine. One day, it will all be grave. Forever.